Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Today was all about keeping busy. Busy minds can’t dwell on the negative, and nothing cheers me up as much as a completely sterilized kitchen! I spent the better part of the day taking down Christmas, and then the house cleaning that follows. Little known fact: the fake trees dump a lot of fake little needles as they are de-fluffed and shoved back into their boxes. I just hope I didn’t break any of the lights. It would really suck to play the Find The Dead Bulb game on a pre-lit tree next year! But I got it all tucked away safely in the garage.
So anyway, after the 3 hours of vacuuming and wiping and packing the phone rang. Now that’s three people recommending I see a counselor/shrink/whatever. I think I will tomorrow. It’s just weird that I was fine all day after a night of literally 2 hours of sleep, that was fitful at best.
(I feel bad putting details like that here without the full disclosure, but I have to go through my process and keep this as vague as possible. If I didn’t include you in the first email let me know if you want the full story. I cannot post details here.)
So here it is bedtime again already and I am dreading it. Last night was tough. Thank god for my iPod, but I just played the same song again and again. Something about trying to sleep made me cry. I don’t want to cry tonight. Maybe a different song..
I think counseling is a good idea too. Not sure what you are going through (or even if you want to tell an almost total stranger), but no matter what it is, being able to talk to a counselor about it and getting things out there will definitely help. Take care and hope you are OK.
Posted by antisocialite on 12/28 at 08:07 PM
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